I`ve done it again, haven`t I?
I know I`ve hurt you again...
my emotions run away with me
and once more, I`ve hurt you,my dearest friend.
Frustrations get the better of me
I should try to be more like you;
calm unassuming kind and wise
in all things I say and I do.
I am far too quick, too judgmental
act before I even think,
the light that surrounds you is so dazzling
but with me, there`s barely a chink.
I`ve hurt you,this time,once too many
and now I sit here and weep
for the friend I`ve lost through my own selfish acts
the scars are far reaching and deep.
To ask for your forgiveness, I cannot do
as many times I`ve asked before
I do not blame you for losing patience with me,
and finally closing the door...
I wait for you to contact me,
in despair, I wait for you
solitude is not an easy thing for me,
but its a thing I`ll just have to live through.
Its what I deserve, perhaps then I`ll learn
I should`ve treated you with more respect and care
alone now in life ,I will trudge on
because my actions lost me my dear friend, so rare..

Leanne Lewis